Well she didn't really wander off. She made sure that she talked to me and we broke it off before she did anything. I know we may not be handling things the best way possible, but we feel that it satisfies us to get through this. Especially since I am leaving for 2 weeks I think that put even more pressure on the situation, as if I was running away from it. But it is more of a forced time away, because if I am close to her I will go see her. I know it isn't right but our "final encounter" which was Tuesday as I posted before, was actually not our final, we have "met" everyday this week. I know, I know I am not supposed to, but I told her that I will take anything I can get at this point cause once I leave ( for the 2 weeks) it may be all over and done with.

I am getting over the situation and am very thankful that I will be surrounded by great people for 2 weeks to really get my through this. She on the other hand will have him, take that anyway you want. Right now it doesn't really feel like we broke up cause she is still very attracted to me and has told me so. I think once she has her "alone time" and has time to sort out the situation, she will then figure out what she wants in life. Not sure if I said this before but I told her that no matter what I tell her and what he tells her or anyone for that matter, she needs to take HER time alone and figure things out for HER and no-one else.

Shut up and pack. Bo is hungry.

Well it is Friday and last night was a rough night for me. Maybe an hour sleep. Between this upcoming trip and my dealing with the breakup, I was a complete mess. I am really looking forward to leaving this place behind. I am somewhat tempted to beg WillWren for a job at HP so I don't have to come back here :? .

Looking forward to leaving in the morning tomorrow, but what I am NOT looking forward to is emptying out my car cause if I don't I will never make it across the border .

I have to go through my list of things to bring, and also have to pack.


HEY WILLWREN, do you have a washer /dryer at your place? reason I ask is that I can pack a bit lighter.

Yup. Got laundry.

Maaaaan, I hope Boosty doesn't give you any of that "Turtle Juice" he loves so much! You don't need to be amped up on that stuff!!

What you do need, however, is a diversion. Something to get your mind off personal problems, work, finances, school, whatever. I've been following this thread and resisting the urge to chime in because everyone'* situation is unique. What worked for one person may not work for another. But I do agree with all the advice telling you to get away for a bit. It'* not so much a physical separation you need, but a mental one. I'm not saying your mental! I'm saying your mind needs to be occupied with something else for a while.

I hope the gang you're riding with will refuse to talk Renee with you and, instead, will make you talk about anything but. I know the route you're taking, and it'll be difficult during those stretches through Nebraska and Wyoming! This will be healthy for you and you'll come back with a renewed focus - whatever that focus may be.

Speaking of Nebraska, and somewhat off the subject, if you have time you can see a nuclear missile silo just off the Dix, NE exit (exit #29, I think). It is adjacent to the east-bound off ramp. Not a real exciting view, but you can drive up the access road and have a look. Then you can ponder the immense destructive power that is less than 100 yards from where your're standing. DO NOT let Boosty try to climb the fence, unless you're particularly fond of looking at the business end of an M-16 with a twitchy-fingered 18 year-old on the other end!

well, she is leaving you for someone who does drugs and has kids. I assume you don't do or have any of this.
I have a feeling she won't see the other guy for long. the real story of a drug addict doesn't unfold all at once. This could be good or bad for you.
Break it off clean with her now and see what happens. If you or she keeps in touch, she won't really grasp the feeling of not being with you. Let her find out what a great guy you are. (assuming that you really are)

my 2 cents

I agree, I think the best thing would be for you two to NOT talk for the next 2 weeks. One of the things that I have learned from my relationshit past is that not talking for a while after break ups actually makes it better in the long run.

Someone take his phone and screen his calls

I think they both know that they are not with eachother anymore so not talking at all well, could be the opposite of what they want since they both wish to remain friends. If they dont talk at all for the two weeks, then its going to be awkward once the 2 weeks is over.

Breakups are the hardest thing to go through weather or not your the one doing the leaving or the one being left.

Im sure hes going to be just fine through all of this and its because of all the people here and his closest friends being there for him.


Keep yer head up

Well I was able to clean the car out, that helped take my mind off things. I also slept for a bit due to lack of sleep over the last week.


One thing that may have been a good thing or may not have, is that I actually went over to his place this morning and talked to him. YES it was awkward, but I basically told him that I will always be a part of her life no matter what and that I will not stand in her way to get what she wants. I think I did it for myself as much as for him, She had a tough time hearing some of the things I was saying cause I was actually able to say them, but they were all good. I am still not sure if it helped me at all but it was something I felt I had to do, to show that I was taking the high road on this and I was not being the ******* in the whole situation.

Well it is a bit late at night, but I still have to pack for 2 weeks for WCBF. I was sent home early from Renée'* house. Yes I was over there, I asked her if I could return the favor for the breakfast the other day. So I packed a picnic and we headed out to the boardwalk( a nice lake here in Sudbury called Ramsey Lake). Had the blanket and everything. This was something that I had promised her for a long time but never did it. PLUS the boardwalk is where it all began for us.

It was a nice evening, cool breeze from the lake, and we had our picnic, and talked again, and she fell asleep for a bit. She was so tired from this last weeks events so I took her home and I went to tuck her in, no funny stuff either, and she started to watch a movie and wanted me to stay for a bit, so I did.


What started out as a pretty crappy day, turned out not so bad. I really wish I would have packed clothes today instead of falling asleep all the time.

This may be one of the last updates due to the fact that as of Tomorrow ( as long as I can get there) I should be surrounded by great BC members and heading to WCBF almost 5,000 kms away from here.