Well Mike, i gotta say im excited to meet you, we are going to have a blast this year, a vacation is good for you at this point.
What car you taking?

I thought he said he was going to hitch a ride with Boosty/Tracy, I may be mistaken

I take the Malibu to Tracy'* house, then hop in with her and billboost. Once we hit Idaho I hop in with Travis and become his second driver for the rotation.


I will say it here like I said it to you Matt in MSN. I am relying on all those going to keep me busy so I don't think of her. The deal is this:

I told her to call me if she needed me for anything, so if I get a call, there is no problem

IF someone sees me grabbing for my phone, I will have to explain to them who and why I am calling. If it is not Renee then I don't have to explain why. If I am calling Renee I have to have a good reason. If it is not a good reason, or I want to call her just because I miss her, that is NOT allowed.

I want to be reasonable, but I need everyones help to get through this. I am not asking for much but that is what I would like.

OH and you will have to put up with hearing about her and the break up a few times till I get tired of talking about it. I apologies now, but that is the way I am as you have seen I always talk about her.

Sorry to hear about all of this. Glad to hear that you are getting a chance to spend some time with other club members.

If I may, I'll make a comment: possession is 9/10 of the law. Promises may be made, promises may be broken. Hate to say it, but to be blunt, I wouldn't shell out another cent in the interim. I apologize if this offends you. I just want to make sure that things work out the best that they can for you.

People start out with the best of intentions, sometimes something happens after that, often at times unexplainable, and from there the tide turns. So, please just be careful, and regarding money, posessions, etc, go with the premonition that if you don't have it in your hands, then it doesn't exist!

Well in that case, I have EVERYTHING and she has nothing. I have all OUR possessions on my parents property in storage.

We talked about that today. She said that she will NOT go through them alone, I have to be there with her, otherwise she won't do it. She said they are OUR possessions and no one else'* and we do it together or not at all.

I understand what you are saying and she feels the same way. She actually didn't like the fact that I had to pay for things over the last 3 years. She is a very independent person, as am I. So I am very well aware at the fact that promises can be broken but until she proves otherwise to me, I have to give her the benefit of doubt.


I did call her tonight when I was rudely awoken by a telemarketer, yes I was having a nap, lol. We chatted again for a while then she had to go eat super. Things seem to be going quite well. She is now hearing from me that I am going to be looking for other people and if it happens will end up in bed with them, not something she wanted to hear, but again I told her that this was par for the course. I said that she started this whole thing and she has the power to stop it.

All in all, I think things are going well, but who knows. I can come back in 2 weeks to see she has changed her tune and NOT want to pay for ANYTHING. So even if that happens, at least our line of credit is paid and that frees up about 500$ for me.

Sounds like you have a handle on things. Very impressive! I'm with ya...hope that everything comes together for you, I am sure it will!

I hope everything comes together for me also, whether she is there by my side or not. Of course I would still like her to be by my side but if all I can be is a good friend to her, and her to me, then I may just have to live with that.


Did I also mention that along with helping to pay down the debt, she is still going to continue to find me a job locally with one of the companies she is contracted to. That was said to me again today.

Note to Pack: Grey Duct Tape. Got it covered...

I'm not there to see for myself, but it sounds like you two are handling things the right way for yourselves.
If you can make it through the next few weeks without letting it turn bitter, or getting into money/property fights, you might stand a chance of keeping her at least as a friend.
This two week vacation is perfectly timed. It will give both of you the chance to figure out how to handle this without being in each other'* space, before you really start the process of seperating your lives.
Just keep it together, OK?

Well believe it or not, she actually called me tonight. It seems that the new guy is already starting to ummm, well, she is finding irritating things about him. I told her that She is still welcome to call me whenever and I won't be holding my breath for us, cause I don't wanna get my hope up.

I told her that the next 2 weeks can really change things for us for the good or bad. She had time to think about things tonight and came to the realization that if things don't work out with her and him, I "may" be with someone at that point and she would be completely single, I think that put things a bit into perspective. Plus she is VERY disappointed that she can't come with me on this trip. We have wanted to take a trip together for years and I know for a fact that if we did this together, she would have never left.


So I will just keep going one day at a time and deal with what is in front of me.