Believe me, I try to do sll of this with the little gas money I have just to have fun and not think about her. I had a chance to do so yesterday, but this whole weekend wore me out. Barbeques and a pack of 20 cars that is in my control while the president of our club is at home and I have to oversee all of them is not easy. Some of them are like babies in a way. This actually takes my mind of the things I went through this past winter.

I think it comes down to the fact that you won't get over her and won't forget but eventually you will come to accept what happened. MAny people I know that have had loved ones that passed away or they lost don't ever forget what happened or get over it (as that is an unreasonable hope) but they accept it as something that happened and that is when their life turns around.

As for your situation in running the club that night CONGRATULATIONS not many people can deal with that many different personalities and still be sane at the end of the night so KUDOS to you

I am about to do it again tonight. I am just thankful the pres will be there.