amazing video.. thanks for making that

A very good News video honouring Chad.

Chad was a myspace friend as well as a BC Club friend. Here is his link but it is set to private so unless you were a registered user and on his list, You cant view much. His last login was Dec.21st. http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm...endid=53840169

Wonderfully done, Tony. I've added the link to the year in review thread....

He took this picture of himself with his camera on a timer and sent it to me when I was waiting for discharge form the Air Force back in Feb 2006. It made me cry happy tears then and now tears that hurt.
I just signed on bc I found a link to the Patriot Guards forum and started reading everything and it just choked me up. http://www.patriotguard.org/Forums/t...c/Default.aspx
I'm so sorry you guys... I keep doing this in here, but no one is awake at home and I'm crying like I have been for the past few nights. I think about him all day every day and it'* just so hard to believe that he'* actually gone and the next time I see him he won't be able to talk to me. I said goodbye to him one night this last May and never knew it would be the last time I'd say it to him and he'd be there to here me. Sometimes I think I left him because I was scared this would happen and it wasn't really because we weren't getting along. Some things were said by him that hurt me but they're petty now that I look back. It hurts so bad right now he was the longest relationship I've ever had. I'm lost right now.

THis is going to be a very hard time for you. While things may have been said that were hurtful, from what I have known of chad, He would have already forgiven you for those being said. You yourself have told us that befor this happened you had talked to eachother, and that things between you two were admirable. Even in this time, if you still feel that you need to tell him you are sorry, then go ahead and do it. I'm sure that the message, in some way or another, will get to him.

And remember, we are here for you, to listen, and to impart advice should it be needed. BC does not let anyone be alone when they need a friend, a shoulder to lean or cry on, or a helping hand. We are a family.

So sorry to hear of this horrible news. I know it seems silly but if there is anything that I can do, let me know......

Thanks for the Patriot Guard link Mel, it was very nice to see.

I agree. It is nice to read but I have to wait until I get home from work because I am crying as I read each heartfelt statement. I still can't beleive it and my contacts are so cloudy I can hardly see. I still just cannot beleive it. I was feeling so down last night my son took me shopping to try to get my mind off of things. It didn't help much and you would never believe what I bought.

Melissa, I still don't even know what to say. It seems unreal, like it didn't happen and it has to be especially the worst for you because of how close you were to him. Chad is still with us in our thoughts and the best thing we can do is remember the memories we have with him. I know that you said you felt guilty about never being able to say you are sorry to him, but he knows already. I hope you can find comfort in knowing that he knows just how you feel for him then, and even still now. Don't think that your feelings will go unnoticed, he knows. You are showing nothing BUT love for him and his family by being there for his mother during this time. She is probably so grateful that she can't even put words to thank you enough for it. You're doing the right thing. Reading those articles is so hard because it still feels like yesterday I was doing the same thing when my friend was killed in Iraq last year. He was just out of highschool too and it was also a roadside bomb that got him. I saw his name on the list and it brought a whole wave of emotion to me again too. I really am sorry. I'm glad that you can find support and atleast a little comfort by visiting us here. We're here for you and Chad'* family through it all during this time of need. I still keep you, and his family in my prayers. God bless!