See what happens when steve is left alone with his thoughts hahaha...I really hope you get it all figured out and back to where you want to be steve

Me too... Thats so true tho... when i just sit here, I get into my own head and nothing good happens.

Yeah u needa go night night and wake up mind cleared and refreshed and just relax tomorrow

thats when my mind really races! when i lay down... Its horrible. I feel like im on the verge of another panic attack or nervous breakdown.. whatever it was that i went threw a few months ago. I can just feel it getting closer and closer

I do the same thing i lay down watch tv and just think and freak out..i have panic attacks about dying...I find it helps to just cuddle up to my wife try to think about my truck or something and force myself to sleep

idk what to do anymore... things will get better and i know that but its hard to realize when u are in the depths of an ether binge. he he

Yeah i have been in that state before im sure we all have and we always pull thru and so will yu

Goodnight guys im to tired to carry on

Many years back I was under so much stress my wife had to rush me to the hospital because we thought I was having a heart attack. Turned out being stress. But it got me thinking. Life is to short to sweat the small stuff. It may seem big to you. Having a child in the hospital for weeks, that'* stress. Watching a family member die, that'* stress I still stress the small stuff, but not nearly like I used to. There comes a point in our life when we say, eF it all. Some get to this point to late, other, just in time.

I could cut the stress out of my life by quitting this job but all that would do is make me get closer to rock bottom. Ive been at rock bottom. The feeling of despair is sickening.
Things will get better i know. If i got my old job back, It would fix everything.
But on the plus side, Im almost done with probation (except i have less than a month to pay off $600 for fee'* and fines.) So i might end up spending christmas in jail. if so this would be the second christmas in a row my girlfriend would have to spend alone. But like i said "accept the things i cannot change".