THis is going to be a very hard time for you. While things may have been said that were hurtful, from what I have known of chad, He would have already forgiven you for those being said. You yourself have told us that befor this happened you had talked to eachother, and that things between you two were admirable. Even in this time, if you still feel that you need to tell him you are sorry, then go ahead and do it. I'm sure that the message, in some way or another, will get to him.
And remember, we are here for you, to listen, and to impart advice should it be needed. BC does not let anyone be alone when they need a friend, a shoulder to lean or cry on, or a helping hand. We are a family.
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