I need a drink please! Give me a Corona and some gin please

In the middle of the day? You want it blended, of course.

No, just enough to get me sloppy drunk to the point I will forget 9-years from now. I really wish I can erase that one person out of my life.

I really hate myself. I must be the dumbest guy on earth! I wish.....when I hit that pole that I really did die! I hate having to think that everything is ok when it really isn't. I lost smeone that meant the world to me and I fuckefd up really bad! I can't no matter what, get her of my mind. I tried drinking, smoking, going out with my car club, talking to other women, speeding, washing my car. Nothing WORKS!

Fill us in on what exact happened thats putting a burdon on your life. Maybe we can help.

I take it things are not goin well with the proceedings? Vent on young man..vent on. But don't forget life is to valuable a gift to waste it away.

Hate to say it, but time heals all wounds. Cheap metaphor..I know :(

I mean I hate that I am bringing this stuff up to the club. But I don't know maybe I need some help. I always said to myself since last fall that I wish I never messed up with her. This woman is like no other. I can't even explain it!. Its just the fact that she is like 25 with a 30 something mind! Always knew what to do, say and treat her signifigant other or friend. I **** up by being gullable or quiet. Never opening uop my mouth to say things when they weren't right. When I had problems at home, I would take it ut on her. We never stayed together because I didn't look for work right away after my CDL got suspended in January 2002. I did work then until May of 2002 when I got busted by the state trooper for a blown headlamp ion the truck. Then things really went down. I have enough to write a whole novel on and I keep thinking why and what if this wouldn't have happend then...... (Sighing) Now she is speaking to somebody else and when I talk to her I try to hide it but IO really hurt inside. My friend tell me to stop talking to her. I say why throw 9 years away? She tell her boyfriend the same thing. I don't know....if I stop talking to her, which I did for 3 weeks, I hurt, if I talk to her I hurt. I wish I had some type of good looks so I can talk to other females but I am a 5.

I really wish I can go back to April of 2002 and make ssome changes. BIG TIME and won't be in the predictament I'm in now. We would probably be together now.

I really do need a drink for every past thought that comes up in my head about her, like the time I thougth we were going to be back together in February when I was in a depression hospital. We talked on the phone actually the whole week I was there. After I got out, Iwe were really close again like we were together, doing things that couples do, then a month later she changed again.

STOP DRINKING TO FORGET!!!!!!!!!!!! this will get you nowhere but being an alcoholic and that does not solve your problems whatsoever. Sure you tried those things and they may have not worked this early but just keep doing what you are doing, I am willing to bet that if you came back to us in a month after continually doing these things you would feel better, not saying you will feel great but I am sure you will be feeling better.