First off, let me tell you that I have been debating as to whether or not to post this, and I finally am going to, just cause I have to get it off my chest......
SO, I went to a friends house on Saturday for a mud bog. Lots of big trucks, quads, beer, and just a plain good time
I get there and spend about 3 hours by myself cause the person that was supposed to go with me had to go to work for "one" hour.... finally someone else from work shows up, so I grab my beer and head over to BS with her and her husband.
This is where it starts to get bad
On my way there, I hear someone say something about "half nig***" Now, to MOST people, they wouldn't think anything of it. BUT I have been tormented alot in my life about my skin color. I am a little bit mexican, so my skin is fairly dark. I have been called just about every racial slur available for mexican, hispanic, chinese, and african american.
at this point in my life, I have decided that I have better things to worry about then people that have a problem with the color of my skin.
I just ignored it and continued to have a good time
well, a couple hours later, more friends of mine show up, and Stephanie got out of work and came out also.
Just as the sun was starting to set, there is this huge K-5 Blazer going through the mud pit, and all of the sudden I hear someone scream "WHITE POWWEERRRR". as you can assume, I was pretty agitated. The guy just kept screaming it over and over again.....
I have learned to manage my boiling point so much so to the point that I can take just about anything and turn away, but this constant racial "knock" was really getting to me. Now, he may have not been intending the remarks for me
, but with how I have been treated in the past, and looking around at the probably 100 people, and seeing that I am the ONLY one with even a HINT of a tan, I take it as a personal attack.
I got to the point that I had to walk away and sit down to TRY to calm down... I was SOOO furious / hurt / upset, that I couldn't even hold my hand still. It was like I was having a siezure. My whole body couldn't stop shaking no matter how much I tried to calm down... Then he said it again. I couldn't handle it anymore.
What did I do? well, the LAST thing I want to turn to is violence... I will do anything in my power to avoid a fight, now to mention, it was a friend / co-workers house.
I went up to my friend ( property owner ) and said " Hey Joe, can someone go and tell Mr. white power to shut up?" well, he was in a group of about 8 people that I don't know, and many of them started laughing at me.
They acted like it never even happened, and one guy even had the balls to say "what does white power mean"... COME ON!!!! I know that racism is getting less and less nowadays, but tell me that you don't know what the meaning behind "white power"? give me a break..... I explained to them on how I have been picked on for being dark skined, and that it was NOT a laughing matter, and finally Joe'* wife stood up and said she was going to say something to him. I never heard back from her......
I have been over to many mud bogs at his house and NEVER had a problem with ANYONE!!!!!!!!! any other time, I have been able to walk around, drinking my beer and just go up and talk to any random person that I don't even know and all was good
So, I think everyone there knew what was being said, but were just too scared to confront it
This completly ruined my entire night, and took away alot of my feeling of security and self comfort. :(
ANYONE that has EVER taken the time to get to know me knows that I am probably the EASIEST person to get along with and that I will take the shirt off of my back for ANYONE. I just absolutely hate the fact that people can have such PUBLIC hatred for anyone based just of skin tone / color.
Not to mention that this guy was the typical stereotype of a racist... tatoos everywhere, shaved head, heck, you could just look at the guy and see hate all over him... TRUST ME, I can read people VERY well.
ALWAYS make sure that you stand up for what YOU believe to be morally right, even if it singles you out in the crowd. also, violence / fighting will NOT make things any better.
What kind of a person am I you ask????
well, if I got a chance to meet this guy face to face, I would not punch, kick, or try to hurt him. Instead I would rather sit down with him man to man and let him get to know me and make his opinion change. IMHO, life is too short to spend it fighting about stupid things.
I could honestly go on for hours here, but I will spare all you now
I feel much better now, and just so you know, no I was not drunk. I had a few beers, but not enough to make me exagerate little things.
I would like to once again thank everyone here for being just overall good people. I love the fact that every meet that I have been to, nobody has ever viewed me as a different person becase of my skin color. You are all a bunch of 1st class individualls and I don't have any idea how to express my gratitude and appreciation for everyone not caring or even giving a second thought about thngs like this.
Thank you all