Well for the past few days I have had a nasty cold/flu sore throat fever stuffy face you know achy bones, headache yeah that. Well yesterday I came home to grab a nap and try
to feel better. Four hours later i wake up and I feel worse anyways.....
I headed over to my girls house Her son had it completely turned upside down a total mess TV on full blast typical B.*.. I'm sitting there wanting to grab this kid by the ear and either make him clean his mess or kick his azz right to his room I instead had a few choice stern words for him gave her a kiss and said I'll be back later.
I get in the car (this is where I do my best thinking) At this point everything is going through my head in kinda slow motion even traffic seems to be moving slowly. I drove for almost 2 hours thinking, thinking about whats going to happen when she moves in with me (yes I said SHE moves in with me not together or me with her) and I say that because thats the way I see it right now she isnt working she doesn't have a nest egg saved up she basically has me. I'm thinking how I'm going to feel coming home to a disaster because her son has no respect for her or anyone or anything. I don't know that I'm looking forward to Your not the boos of me I don;t have to listen to you go F yourself Ahole or what ever other choice words he has at that moment in time. Now don;t get me wrong he is improving but he has a long way to go a long way.
So I'm driving and driving at this point I don't even really know where I am even the old farmer in front of my doing 10-15 under the posted speed limit isn't bothering me. I'm thinking about what she means to me and how much I am in love with her and all of the obstacles we have been through and we are where we are today because we both understand what we mean to each other.
It'* not that I'm afraid of change, I'm just well I don't know.
I guess I'm just sick and when I'm sick I am not 100% and no I'm not backing out or even thinking about it just getting it off of my chest I guess. I understand what she has been through I saw where she was and I deal with it with her every time her Ex does something stupid like last week he Called her on Friday and said " My gas got shut off I can't pick up Shane" you would think that he would take him the next weekend right.... Nope. So today I told her not to answer the phone when he calls because monday were going to see my lawyer and she is going to take him back to court. Since she got this agreement 6 months ago he has followed through with it half a dozen times. I told her tonight as of right now were playing it my way, Were going to see my lawyer on Monday and start over.
Why is it I have to always stand up and where is my rock ? sometimes I just feel like I have to always have the answers who has answers for me?
anyways I'm not looking for sympathy like I said I'm just getting it off my chest. It would though be nice to have one day go by with out having to pick up someone else'* pieces .
thanks for caring...
on the bright side the evil cat from hell who hates everything from her own shadow to the drip in the sink is sleeping on my lap right now..
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