well we went to dinner tonight.
she asked me to come home tonight. i told her to think about it, if she still wanted me to come home tomorrow after our class together, i would love to.
we had a really good night out. we talked about our expectations of one-another and laughed a lot. basically we reconnected in a way we hadnt in a long time. but the problems that caused this are still there. i didnt want her to think that they had disappeared based on a good night -- but im hoping like hell that shell tell me im welcome back tomorrow night.
im not out of the woods yet, but the odds of coming out alive are very promising. we didnt discuss at all tonight what role she wants me to play, i think we would have discussed it if i would have hung around at our house. but i didnt. i left as quickly as i could manage because i didnt want anything to happen that she wasnt ready for yet. tomorrow night though . . . if she hasnt changed her mind, ill find out what this means.
thank you so much to everyone. it means a lot to me. ill make at least one more post on this subject, at least saying what the exact results are . . .