so im still employed with kohls, but i have no idea for how much longer. since they let me know they will be letting me go, ive put in roughly 40 applications while still working 40 hrs a week, going to school full-time, and keeping up with my homework. its not easy. but no one ever told me life was easy.
so with my future up in the air right now, im re-evaluating my needs.
i have to face a couple facts.
1. i might not be able to continue going to school next semester. if i dont have a job, i certainly dont have money for school. financial aid has told me they wont touch me.
2. i might have to sell my car. obviously, ill cut it before i cut school, because school is where my priority is.
selling my car is probably one of the toughest decisions ill ever have to make, and its not to that point yet, but i have to accept that point might be looming in the near future. luckily, i kept all of the parts i took off the car, so ill be able to demod before i sell it. if it comes to that.
silver lining? . . . i dont see it.
its frustrating to me that theres no help that i can see. im already ~$13000 in debt from prior semesters.
im just really demoralized right now. if i were part of a minority, financial aid wouldnt be this hard to come by. but im blessed with being middle-class and white. what was i thinking that I
could be the first person in my family to graduate high school and
get a college degree?
bids start now. im upside-down by roughly $2000.
when i got this car, i had no way to predict that my employer of over 6 years would decide that they were no longer willing to put up with my restricted schedule due to school -- ive always gone to school, since they hired me. but i should have seen the possibility (there were no warnings, looking back) and behaved accordingly. i wouldnt be having nearly this problem if i had gotten a cheap beater. but then, visions 20/20 in hindsight, right?
i only hope that God gives me a way through this, without me having to sacrifice school.
EDIT: ive got 4 semesters left, after this one.